Sunday, May 6th 2012, Nurul Fikri :-}



Jadi, disini gua mau nulis tentang (alhamdulillah) pengganti carrol. Carrol&Fikri itu adalah dua sosok cowok yang sama sekali gabisa di samain ataupun layak buat dibanding-bandingin. Karena, keduanya punya perbedaan yang jelas dan malah gada yang sama diantara diri mereka. Lucu juga ya gue bisa jatuh cinta di antara dua pribadi yang jauh berbeda. Carrol, sosok cowok yang glamour, cowok romantis yang banyak gebetannya, highclass dan jauh dari perkiraan kalo gua bisa sempet sayang sampe bego sama dia. Sedangkan, Fikri itu cowok sederhana, apa ada nya yang selalu bisa bikin gua ketawa. Awalnya, gua sempet gak yakin kalo Fikri beneran suka sama gua, but who the hell knows about his feeling? ya gua coba buat ngebuka hati gua yang udah hampir 3 bulan keep fooling around. Akhirnya gua sadar, there's someone who deserve me, and worth for fighting for :-)


Thursday, May 3rd 2012 when the first time I met him. Fik, you're good at stealing my heart, I guess :-p pandangan gua tentang Fikri yang awalnya gua kira cuma mau main-main doang itu berubah. Dari dulu, gua selalu seneng sama cowok yang ramah dan bisa bikin gua nyaman kalo ada di deket dia. and he's got everything I need, so? buat apa lagi ? :-) keep waiting on someone who even doesn't deserve my tears, gitu? Oh, unfortunately I'm no longer a fool.  Udah pinter nih, hahaha. Be tough isn't as easy as you ever thought. But, life has a thousand ways for make me stronger. Well, I've learnt a lot from my past. I hope nothing, I expect less cause I don't wanna get hurt too much at the end. I love being with you, I cherish every moment with you. Words can't explain about how glad I could having you in my life and I don't care about your flaws, I love you just like the way you are my baby({})

Someone Like You- Adele

I heard
That you're settled down
That you
Found a girl
And you're
Married now

I heard
That your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Old friend
Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday
It was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known
How bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Bina Antarbudaya :-}

Well, last sunday I had schoolarship's test at University Of Indonesia, Depok. There was more than 900 participants from Jakarta.  Feels like I'm only the 0,5% on it HAHAHA. I want to fly like a g6 LOL JK. Ok, I'm nervous, like seriously. I just want to go home as soon as possible. The test was held at 08.15am-03.30pm. There was 100 kind of question(s) for the General Knowledge. But, shit.... Unfortunately the question(s) successfully made pissed me off. WHICH THE HELL I SHOULD ANSWER FIRST? I can't think anything.  That question was......asdfghjkl I can't say anything and suddenly  I think, "Am I the only one who couldn't do this shit?" hahahaha but I swear by my God, I'm not lying. Feels like I'm the weirdest person in the class. After General Knowledge we had a break then TARAAAAA~ English's Test was waiting me. Praise the Lord, the question(s) isn't as bas as before. I can do that test with a  big smile on my face ;-D there was 50 question(s) for English and I hate that I have to read the question as same as I read the newspaper. It take less than a hour for answering that questions. At 12.30pm we had the second break.  O ya, I was with Irvin, Anindita and Siva. We had lunch together but before it we had to queuing because there was so many students there and I'm not the only one who need to eat :] I was ate Nasi Uduk haha. Indonesian Test was waiting me on 01.37 yaaap! it was time for writing session hahaha. We had to wrote down such as like a story but the themes has been determined by the committee and I ain't wrong I was choose " Tiga Langkah Untuk Menjadi Seorang Pemimpin" 1 hour 30 minutes has  passed and it's time for back to home :] but wait, we had a lot of fun there we could knows more friends from another school,obviously... that was 03.30 pm and my dad was pick me at there. That day was amazingly beautiful, I can't  explain it it was full of randomness. By the way, my friend, Irvin was always with me. Thanks sweetie<3 we are the next Volunteer! United States Of America, German, Australia. I'm ready for you B-) seen you soon :-}

Hi blog, long time no post. I have so many new stories that I want to tell. First, I've moved on from someone in the past. HELL YEAH. Finally, I can get over him.  The most unbelievable thing. After more than 7 months. I know, you will never let me in tears forever,God. I know that you love me. You have a better plan for me. I know you're busy writing my next love stories :} by the way, I've realized that he is such a player, no offense but you guys must be knew who I'm talking about.  Who doesn't knows about HOW BIG MY LOVE WAS? But, I've accepted all the facts that we're not belong together and accepted the fact that you're not good enough for me, and I'm deserve to get the best and that is not you :} sorry for saying this, but you even don't deserve my tears and you're not worthy for me to fighting for. But, I've to say THANK YOU SO MUCH cause I never loving someone as deep as I used to love you. You used to be my favorite pain. I know it hurts for having you in my life, but I still want you. After all the things that you've done to me and broke my heart into the pieces, I STILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF THE LITTLE PIECES. But now, sorry.... I'm no longer such a fool HAHA. I've found my way to get my own happiness and it obviously without you in it. It has been almost 3 months since we broke up and I'm still single, no...not because I can't forget you BUT I don't wanna make wrong choice for just like so many times. I AM THE NEW ME, I AM TODAY.





PAST COULDN'T BE CHANGED, EDITED, REWIND OR EVEN BEING FIXED :} IT ONLY COULD BE ACCEPTED AND LEARN FROM IT SO WE WOULDN'T FALL INTO THE SAME HOLEEEE :-}

Hi...long time no post Hahaha. so you all knows the main reason why I choose for not blogging for a while,don't you? Yup,since I broke up with carrol everything completely changed. & you you've read the last post from me,right? it's about carrol haha. Ok, let's skip all the things about him. Ya, today April 12th 2012, I have been single for 2 months. Hmm I'm still single not because I still want him to come back BUT I'm afraid of calling something that I guess it's LOVE but it wasn't. I cherish every single moment of being single. you know that single a lot more fun? hell yeah, but I can't deny it, sometimes I need someone who will give his attention more to me. The best part of being single is, I can talk with so many boys without getting worry. Bitchy? hell-no! It's mean I appreciate for someone who make an effort to me for make me realize that THERE IS LOTS OF BOYS THAT BETTER THAN HIM. Thanks God you've given me a chance for find someone who is a lot than him:-) and now I realized, he is not worth for me to fighting for& he doesn't deserve my tears. I know I shouldn't wait for him but I am not regret about what I've done to him. It would change nothing if I regret it, because past can't be edited or rewind. We only could accept it all as lessons for not doing that in the future. For me, he is the EXample for the failure relationship so I wish I wouldn't be failed again...:)

"Ayah" menurut kalian apasih ayah itu? Well, for me dad is the most wonderful thing that ever appears to this world after someone that we called 'mom' or we can call they both as a parents. Ya, they both who brought us to this world. Without them there is will no me. Feel so lucky that I could have a dad like him. Super strong, funny and wise. He is the one and he will never gonna be replace. He taught me so many things the way how to be patient while there is so many problems that we have to face, how to be a BETTER person. You know what? me and my dad aren't always have a good communication sometimes when he arrived after worked he eats and sleep or maybe watch a television for a while. But me? I'm busy with the school's stuffs that isn't cool at all. YAKKKKSSS!:& but I've promised to my dad, that I will prove him that one day I can be the one who can make he really proud of to have a daughter like me. He almost never gets angry with me even how big my mistakes. He is really good father or maybe the best of the best. I have so many similarities with him, first we both are such a stubborn person, have a high ambition and never sees and think that we want to get is impossible because I know nothing's impossible. Everything could happen if we want, if we try and pray as hard as we can. My dad always says that to me. So, no matter how big something that we want if we try and takes many efforts I think everything is reachable. I remember the quote "if there is a will, there is a way." ya, that's quote is totally right!!!! I'm so agree with that. And there's still so many similarities between us and the important one is, he is really good at mathematics and physics!!! how envy. while I'm not good at 2 kinds of subjects. I really hate them, really >:O he could be everything that I need. Sometimes he could be such a wise person hmm.....he has so many quotes for me :-p he could be a father that really knows what's her daughter want. He was born in Jakarta on August 1st 1969 B-) HE IS MY EVERYTHING, I LOVE YOU!♥

Hidup.

Well,apa sih artinya hidup? apa tujuan dari hidup? dan kenapa kita harus hidup? Mungkin bukan hanya satu dua orang yang punya pertanyaan seperti itu, tetapi bisa ratusan,ribuan atau bahkan? milyaran. Sampai saat ini gue juga masih gatau definisi yang bener dari apa yang namanya HIDUP itu sendiri. Setiap orang punya statement masing-masing terhadap hidup. Kalo menurut gue pribadi sih, hidup itu ada pilihan. Pilihan yang kita harus jalani, hidup itu seperti roda. Roda itu berputar jadi intinya adalah hiudp itu berputar, dalam arti hidup kita gak selamanya di atas atau pun selamanya dibawah. Pasti kehidupan kita gak akan selamanya mudah atau sulit. Tuhan udah nyusun kisah hidup kita dari sebelum kita lahir ke dunia. Menurut gue pribadi,cobaan terberat dalam hidup tuh saat lo lagi diatas. Kenapa terberat? Iya, karena sebenernya kita lagi di coba sama Tuhan. Selama kita kaya, kita bakal terus bersyukur dan ingat sama dia atau enggak dengan cara berdoa&amal ibadah lainnya. Sadar gak sih? Banyak orang yang sangat amat terlena dengan harta dan kemewahan sampe sampe mereka gak inget sama tuhan kalo sebenernya yang ngasih semua itu adalah TUHAN? Mereka sadarnya, mereka dapet semua yang mereka mau dari hasil usaha mereka sendiri. Iya, emang bener. Tapi dibalik itu semua itu ada kehendak tuhan, mungkin mereka gak bakal bisa kayak gitu kalo tuhan gak menghendaki . Gabakal bisa ngerasain dinginnya AC yang ada di kamar/rumah mereka, gabakal bisa naik mobil mewah , gabakal bisa bersekolah dengan nyaman, gabakal bisa makan makanan yang enak, gabisa bernafas dan yang paling paling itu sebenernya adalah tanpa kehendak tuhan mereka gak akan ada di dunia ini. Terkadang, gue malah berfikir saat posisi kita di bawah itu bukan karena Tuhan gak sayang sama kita tapi Ia memberikan cobaan kepada hambanya, seberapa kuat iman hambanya dan seberapa besar ia ingat kepada Tuhan disaat kehidupannya tidak se nikmat orang-orang diatasnya? Gue yakin banget kok Tuhan sayang sama semua umatnya tanpa terkecuali, cuma ada saat-saatnya dan itu gak akan selamanya karena setiap manusia pasti dicoba.

Contohnya dari hal-hal kecil deh kayak misalnya lo ulangan dan udah belajar semaksimal mungkin tapi hasilnya gak memuaskan,ya kayak gitu-gitu deh. Berarti Tuhan maunya lo berusaha lebih keras lagi. Ohya, hidup itu harus punya mimpi. Hidup tanpa punya mimpi atau angan angan tuh bakal garing banget. Kayak gada keinginan hidup. Justru mimpi itulah yang menjadi motivator lo buat hidup. Kalo hidup lo gak mimpi,apa yang mau diraih bro? Mending mati aja itu mah. Ambisi tuh perlu, tapi ambisi yang berlebihan juga gak baik. Jadi, semuanya harus di takar secara merata dan gak berlebihan karena segala sesuatu yang berlebihan itu gabaik. Kalo ditanya mimpi gue......mimpi gue tuh : 1. Ngebahagiain semua orang yang gue sayang, 2. Bahagia dunia dan akhirat, 3. Bisa jadi diploma. siapa sih orang yang gak mau mimpi nya terwujud? tunjuk tangan! HAHA menurut gue hanya orang gila& gapunya otak kalo kayak gitu. Hidup tuh keras bradeer! Kalo lo lembek mau jadi apa? mau di injek-injek? Jangan sampe deh lo cuma jadi ilalang di kehidupan orang, jangan selalu bergantung sama orang. Kalo Tuhan ngasih lo cobaan bertubi-tubi lo jangan berdoa biar Tuhan ngurangin dosis masalah-masalah lo tapi berdoa dan minta agar lo menjadi orang yang jauh lebih kuat.

Jadi,ibaratnya gini....Kalo lo di tonjok ya lo tonjok balik. Jangan ngalah terus pergi. Itu pecundang namanya harga diri tuh paling penting. Nah,sekarang kalo harga diri aja lo udah gapunya apa yang lo bisa banggain di diri lo?

Gabakal ada asap kalo gak ada api,right?

Gak ada yang gak mungkin kok di dunia ini asal lo mau berusaha dan kerja keras untuk mewujudkan semuanya yang lo impikan buang jauh-jauh deh tuh kata "susah" atau apapun yang bermakna negatif. Resolusi lo buat 2012 apa? pasti banyak dan baik-baik kan? NAH! wujudin tuh sebelum(katanya) kiamat bakal ada akhir tahun ini dan lo bakal nyesel selamanya tanpa bisa ngewujudin semua itu. HAHA bye.