Friday, February 22, 2013

Teenagers Nowadays

Teenagers? I bet you all know what is teenagers mean in Indonesian, "remaja". Most all the teenagers are so fucked up, messed up, free sex, do drugs, smoke weed, go to the club every saturday night then are they really care about their education? I am as a teenagers feel so sorry about knowing it all happens on the others teenagers. For me, education is the most important of all, wasting my time for those useless things doesn't make me a better person in the future so I decided for being focus on my school. They say I am old school or even out of the year, but for me, life is about learning, gaining knowledge, it suck for wasting the time by doing those things. Hi Bro, this is 2013! do you ever wonder how life goes? it getting harder everyday, don't you care about all the people around you? there's something that you have to know, when you are lazy for doing something right, like study, add effort, a million peoples out there is trying hard for reach their dreams. Because, there's nothing impossible if you want to make it true. There will always a way for everyone who have a will. God will never let his creature down. Doing right things, don't let the world make you down, don't let the people make you out of control, whatever happens don't ever give up for something that you really want to & want to be. I think, there's no point of spending half of our money to buy a cigarettes/beer/weed/drugs or even CONDOM?  does it makes you look amazingly cool? time getting faster, days go by, people changes, love is fading and there's nothing would ever help you unless yourself and God. 

Life is about learning, learning everything, like how to be patient, how to be strong, how to be getting back after all the peoples let you down, gaining knowledge, how to be independent, how to be tough on the the hardest situation, how to be grateful with everything they have, how to be GOOD IN EVERYTHING, IN EVERYWAY. BECAUSE GOD MAKE US WITH NO MISTAKE :) 

Monday, January 7, 2013

Nothing Lasts Forever

yea, I broke up with my boyfriend a couple week ago. He cheated on me, so I decided to let him go. It's hard for accepting the truth that he is no longer mine, but life must go on no matter what. He betrayed me, I don't know what should I do when the first time I knew it. It's like I want to punch him as hard as I can, slap him as much as I want. But, I know it would doesn't change a thing. I used to loved him so much, but since he doesn't appreciate me, he means nothing. Seems like something that we have built really hard, being destroyed as easy as we blink the eyes. I tried to keep him as hard as I can no matter how many people try to destroy us, but at the end, he is the one who is successfully destroy it all. 7 months 13 days seems means nothing. I feel so broke, for me he used to be the only one, he cheer me up, he knew how to make me smile, he was my moodbooster, he was my everything. I've never been in this hurt, in this situation, in this dark, in this position. I wish I could keep him longer than this 7 months, I know that nothing lasts forever but at least I want be with him longer than this :'-( but I won't be. I never regret for loving him, even he is such a player. Thanks for everything Nurul Fikri, thanks for ever be the only reason why I smile :'-)

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


The new beginning of my life is, become the part of your life, Fik. It's been almost 6 months we've been together. Maybe 6 is only just a number, it doesn't mean a thing. But for me, could having you that long is something that I have to be proud of. It isn't just about how deep and how much we care each other, it's about making a new life, learn from each other, and try to keeping as hard as I can. There's so much things we've been through and it isn't makes me tired and give up on you because I know, you're deserve and worth it. I couldn't say anything much, you're more than such an amazing. you're completely completed me. Even though, you aren't always could be the one I always wanted, with you my life is so much better. I'm glad could be the one who have your heart, I'm glad that you keep me as hard as this. Could have you as mine is the greatest thing that ever happened into my life. You're the greatest gift. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME THIS WAY ;-)

Saturday, September 15, 2012


HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY TO ME. OHYEAH, I'm turn 16th 5 days ago. I was born in Jakarta on September 11th 1996, I'm no longer such a innocent girl, I've grown up. There's nothing I could say, this year my birthday was so much different, this year i was celebrated it with my boy. YEAA!!! this year i have a boyfriend =)) ok it's kinda ridiculous i think ;-p but well, thank you for all of you those remember my birthday, thank you for all of the greetings, I'm nothing without you guys. Especially, thank you for the most precious boy i have, Nurul Fikri. Thank you for coming to my home in the middle of the night for give me a surprise, i love you more than any words i can say. I feel so blessed, hope everything could be lots better in this age, be mature, be wise and be better :)

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Happy 4th♥

Happy 4th Mensiversary my biggest boyfriend ever, thank you for everything. I can't say anything much, I'm just so glad for having you in my life as mine. There's nothing could ever more than you do, because you all everything that I need for every little pieces that missing, you've totally completed me. We've through even in the hardest part and the fact is, no matter how bad the situation is I'm not gonna leave you because I know, it just the beginning, beginning of my new life. I've cried a lot, hurt so much but it doesn't makes me give up on you. I have got no reason why I loving you, so that's no reason for stop it. I wondering how my life is, if there is no you anymore. Could know you as mine is one of the biggest happiness. Being loved back by you is the most precious thing that ever came to my life. Fikri, thank you for always try to understands me, care of me, be everything that I needed. No matter how hard, I'd go through this and it obviously with you because maybe it's hurt me enough for keeping you by my side after all the mistakes that you've done, but it could be much hurting me if there's no more you. I LOVE YOU FIKRI 

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

there's no regret button later.

Life has taught us so much thing. Basically, life is something that we can't choose is all about destiny. We can't choose who we want to be our parents, where we want to live. That's all about destiny, there some people who might be not rich or something, but they have a happily life and there's an opposite life, they have lots of money but they aren't that happy.

Jessie J was right, money can't buy happiness. Happiness would come for those who always be grateful for what they already have. God loves all of his creature and won't let us down. He always gives us the best, if he doesn't give what you want, believe that he will gives us what we need,indeed. If he doesn't makes your dream come true, believe that he has another plans that so much better. We have to know what we need and what we want, as a teenager I sometimes spend all of my money for the unimportant things because of "hungry eyes" as i always called. we actually don't really need that thingy, but teenager's world isn't that friendly. But there's a time that we would realize we shouldn't do that. Do you ever think about ;
1. we buy lots of clothes, and out there need a bite of food?
2. we sleep with a blanket on a comfortable bed with air conditioner, out there sleep with the cold?
3. we have an enough education but we lazy to go to school , but out there have to work for their family for a plate of rice?

don't ever hate your life, do what you want, do the good one and leave the bad one because something bad won't make you be a good person then. Always be grateful, there's so much people who try to survive their life. don't destroy your life that God has given for unimportant things. :)

Saturday, July 28, 2012

May, 06th 2012.

it's been almost 3 months since we started for make both life became our life. you've totally completed me by your own way. I'm serious about what I say, I don't let anyone for take away my happiness, my happiness is you. you bright my life even brighter each day, I cherish every moment I'm with you seems like i don't wanna miss a little part of it. I have to be thankful to God, because he has given me the person which is perfectly amazing into my life. There's so much things that we've been together, and I know we still could be together even we're on the hardest part. Because I believe if we're belong together, everything I do will bring me back to you. If there really is, there's no reason for me to give up for you I'd fight anything and everything for you because you're worth it. Thanks for always try for be the best for me, fight for us, keep me and loving me :) there's no long enough time for us Fik. I love you and I really do. Could be the part of your life is one of the biggest happiness for me, I'm so grateful for having you in my life, and I don't wanna anyone else for replace me in your heart. Fikri, if you can make girl laugh, it means that girl is like you but if you make girl cry, it means that girl is love you. So believe me, I do love you because I've cried for so many time for your just for showing how much I love you, how much I care of you and how much I don't wanna lose you because I don't ever wanna lose the thing that could make me feel so blessed. You're so perfectly perfect with your laugh, jokes and patience and the most important one is ; you love me just the way I am. I love you to the fullest and I love you because there's nothing could ever be as perfect as you. I consider you as the best of the best person that ever came into my life, you do it right you make me fall in love with you all over again and there's no word that could explain how much I want you in my life. It's hard for me to through the day without you, I can't imagine how my life if there was no you I could be such a mess. Fikri, thank you for always being there whenever I need you thanks for could be everything for me, I love you